Blogging and Accountability

I was thinking this morning. I am lazy. I am totally off track. I'm not lazy in the sense that I sit around all day eating bons bons, drinking wine and being slovenly. I'm lazy in that I haven't taken the time to plan out my schedule so that I actually exercise and eat right.

I checked out Amy's blog, and she reminded me of the commitment we made awhile ago - and how successful it made us in our journey to get healthy. With the help of Stacey, Amy, BBM and I were communicating our goals. I've been slacking in making time for myself.

So today, I went for a good long walk. I'm not exactly sure how long but I am pretty sure it was at least 3 miles.

This is what I need to do for the week:

1. go food shopping

2. get up earlier

3. go to the gym

4. get organized with my time

Sounds easy! HA!


How about this for weird. I have been not a great exerciser - and I lost ten lbs. Nice one. I think it's all about my crazy water retention. Hopefully I will have some answers soon!

Marketing and Shin Splints

I just lost my whole post. I just posted about my lovely walk in Bare Cove Park. I got terrible shin splints. I am glad that BBM came with me, because I might have turned around.

I have decided to attack fitness and losing weight with the same intensity that I attacked marketing my law practice and other things that I have set my mind to in my life. Generally, if I set my mind to something, I can get it done. This doesn't work for everything, but since my health, fitness and wellness are something I can control, I'm going to have at it!

A few goals for myself:

1. Stretch out my shins and calves when I get home from work.
2. Get flats or some other sort of slip on for days when I am in the office (and there are no clients).
3. Get up tomorrow at 5 a.m.
4. Track my food and exercise today.

Those are mini-goals and totally doable. It's all about baby-steps

The scale is not my friend

I'm fatter and heavier than I have ever been on my life. Don't worry, I'm NEVER going to post my weight, unless of course I lose it, and want to show off. (And. I am definitely NOT pregnant...and YES I am sure.)

I was at my mom's for Mother's Day. She has a scale. I stepped on it. It was higher than I have ever seen. I then took off my very cute jean jacket, it was lower, but still VERY high. I then had my husband get on it. He said it was correct.

So on the way home we were talking. I'm getting fatter and fatter. I've been dieting and gaining weight.

Husband: I don't think you have a thyroid problem or anything, but I think you have to exercise a lot if you are going to lose weight. Your metabolism is slowing down.

Me: I've been exercising more than ever.

Husband: You do not have the metabolism of your mom and sister. Sorry. (He said this very nicely.)

Me: I know. I never thought I did (getting a little snarky).

Husband: You've been walking for ages and it is probably just keeping you from ballooning out.

Me: I do not like to run.

Then we talked about options. For one, I have been getting up earlier so I could go to the gym and do some heavy duty cardio in the morning, but that is a pain. We also talked about getting an elliptical machine.

The thing is that I have been watching what I eat. I have been more active. I have gained. Nothing fits. I have even gained since starting the blog.

Facing reality and finding balance

Here's the thing. I'm fat. Not super obese. But overweight. I have little bones. I used to be a comfortable size 4. I had a little 'blubber' but mostly I looked cute. (size 0 was too small)

I'm uncomfortable that I'm fat. But I am not unhappy with myself. This might be the first day that I realized - I do not like being fat, but it does not make me unhappy, a bad person or a bad anything. I'm still cute and fun and smart.

I had a bit of a realization when trying on clothes at one of my very favorite stores Lyn Evans for Potpourri Designs. The site is broken but hopefully it will be up soon. Anyway, I tried on a bunch of clothes and many of them were too small. It was eye opening to see that I am at the high end of 'regular sizes'.

So then, on my way home, I was chatting with my friend, who is really in a groove and succeeding at getting fit, Leanna, was walking. It was 9 p.m. I thought it was too late. She said "says who?" Good question. I went for a twenty minute walk/run around my neighborhood. Better than nothing.

I think I am revamping my goals and for now I am going to keep with the minute goals...but make sure that I do ten minutes of at least brisk walking every day.

I'm also going to measure and weigh myself so I can keep track of my stats.

Goals for the week

To make myself accountable:

• 180 minutes of cardio (includes walking)
• strength training twice
• write down or log what I eat so I can see what I am eating
• water, water, water

Mini-steps and revamping my GOALS

I have decided that although my leather pants from Florence circa 2001 are my ultimate goal, I need some mini-motivation. So my first mini-step is my brown suit pants, that fit but are snug and I would rather not wear them because my bottom would make J-Lo jealous.

I have not even tried on the leather pants (but I promise a picture soon).

My next goal after the brown suit pants, are my navy suit pants (which are only slightly tighter).

Then I'll have to think of something else.

For now, it's skirt suits and pantyhose to stuff it all in!