What I learned at the doctor's office.

I went to the doctor today. It was actually almost 12 hours ago, but it's been a long day!

First of all, it was crazy person day. That is all I will say, but it must be a full moon.
I didn't walk due to swollen limbs. I will exercise tomorrow. I ate well today.

This is what I learned at the doctor:
(this was not my PCP but the 'urgent care' doctor -- I will NEVER see him again).

1. Doctors are sometimes too lazy or impatient to interrupt other doctors to see if they got a fax from a patient's specialist.
2. I am getting old ("we all are") and perhaps I need support hose.
3. I drink too much water (I did not volunteer this information) and if I'm thirsty try a Popsicle.
4. I'm not grossly over saturated, but definitely retaining fluid.
5. Weight watchers and the Zone diet guy made up the water obsession to help dieters keep their hands busy with something other than food.
6. I am crazy.

No, seriously, I'm not crazy. I hate when doctors dismiss me. They took some blood. Didn't seem to care that I had GAINED 18 lbs in 2 months. 18. Yes. 8 in less than a month. That's a lot for someone who is definitely eating less than she was AND exercising. Basically I got no answers. He did say it was fine to exercise. I'm sure it is, but I have to say that I don't feel like I got any answers.

I made an appointment with my PCP when I left the doctor's office. I told her nurse that I didn't feel comfortable with the other doctor and that he made me feel crazy. Like I was imagining water retention. I'm not.

I had some watermelon, and my new favorite Fage yogurt and a salad and some shrimp for my 'evening' meal.

Half a banana?

Today I went to with my mom and her friend to get manicures and pedicures for my mom's wedding! It was my mom's second pedicure in 60 years. It was my second pedicure in 2 weeks. I think she liked it. I love pedicures!

I'm swollen. Still swollen. I called my doctor (a different one) and he said he doesn't think it is my colitis medication but he will call me in the morning as he had just gotten back from a conference. Also, I have to go in and see him. That's kind of a pain.

Now my feet have been swollen for awhile and I haven't lost any weight (despite, actually eating LESS and exercising). My mom was alarmed at my 'cankles' and swollen feet and I think she was afraid that I was going to stroke out so she made me promise to go straight to her friend's house and have my blood pressure checked. It's perfect. My pulse is great.
While I was there, my mom's friend suggested I only eat half a banana instead of a whole one to see if that helps me lose weight.

I came home and the husband got a good look at my feet and was alarmed. I had to promise to insist on talking to the doctor in the morning.

I didn't think it was a big deal. I didn't exercise though - I was feeling uncomfortable and all the alarm made me nervous. My nails look pretty, I had some watermelon. I'm watching You, Me and Dupree with the husband. I've already met my cardio goals for the week. I ate well.

A lost Ipod, new mantra and shin splints

I still have shin splints (sorry Leanna). I went for a walk this morning. The husband sort of pushed me out of bed. Then we were out of milk so I had to run to the supermarket (not literally...I drove). Then I came home, had two eggs and some coffee.

Then I walked. As I was walking, I heard myself thinking of my old motivational self-talk, which for the record is highly negative and involves the word 'fatty'.

This negative self-talk is not helpful. I don't quite have a new mantra - but I have new phrases that I use such as: "I'm strong", "I'm fit", "I'm on the road to a healthy lifestyle", "I feel good", "These shin splints are slowly improving and will be better next week".

I'm trying to visualize where I want to be instead of being negative about where I am. I'm not in a negative spot, I'm just moving towards a more positive one!

Also, I can't find my ipod. This is a problem. I might need to go and get myself a shuffle for exercise purposes (I like how they clip on). We (as in the husband and I) are planning on getting iphones when our contract with verizon runs out...so I don't want to go and get a whole new ipod, and I think a shuffle will work just fine.

Anyway, I walked 4 out of 5 days this week!

The scale is not my friend

I'm fatter and heavier than I have ever been on my life. Don't worry, I'm NEVER going to post my weight, unless of course I lose it, and want to show off. (And. I am definitely NOT pregnant...and YES I am sure.)

I was at my mom's for Mother's Day. She has a scale. I stepped on it. It was higher than I have ever seen. I then took off my very cute jean jacket, it was lower, but still VERY high. I then had my husband get on it. He said it was correct.

So on the way home we were talking. I'm getting fatter and fatter. I've been dieting and gaining weight.

Husband: I don't think you have a thyroid problem or anything, but I think you have to exercise a lot if you are going to lose weight. Your metabolism is slowing down.

Me: I've been exercising more than ever.

Husband: You do not have the metabolism of your mom and sister. Sorry. (He said this very nicely.)

Me: I know. I never thought I did (getting a little snarky).

Husband: You've been walking for ages and it is probably just keeping you from ballooning out.

Me: I do not like to run.

Then we talked about options. For one, I have been getting up earlier so I could go to the gym and do some heavy duty cardio in the morning, but that is a pain. We also talked about getting an elliptical machine.

The thing is that I have been watching what I eat. I have been more active. I have gained. Nothing fits. I have even gained since starting the blog.